Oh what a night! Tonight, I was All In!
What a night indeed! Time really slowed down for an evening and we made the best of it!! You performed, you giggled and laughed, you tickle fought! I beamed with pride (maybe even had a tear building in my eye), overwhelmed with thankfulness, and tickle fought too!! Tonight, time stopped for a little bit. I basked in the giggles while acting silly and brushing your teeth. I wasn’t in a hurry.
Tonight, you both put on the most amazing interpretive dance performance I have ever seen. I watched intently as you closely watched me to make sure I didn’t look away or look at my phone. You knew you had 110% of my attention. Tonight time stopped, nothing on my mind but 2 amazing little girls.
Amelia, you were amazing. You danced with passion, you were all in. There were moments that I held back laughter because of an intense facial expression. My heart overflowed with joy, pride, and thankfulness. I fought tears at times because I was recording all this in my head. I recognized the importance of the moment we were in. I celebrated and praised Jesus while watching the sweetest face grin back at me when she could tell I was proud. I ooh’ed and awe’d. You were amazing.
Audrey, and then you got up. You knew you had to raise the bar because you just watched your daddy fall even deeper in love with a little 5 year old girl. So you stepped onto the mat and entered your first position for the dance! You waited for the music to start. And so did I, it seemed like forever because time had stopped. There was no one in that room but you and me…well and Amelia but even she knew this was Audrey’s time! You danced with the most beautiful smile and thought out every interpretive move. You intertwined interpretative dance, ballet, tumbling, and gymnastics like I had never seen before. I was lost in this moment watching you. I gushed with pride. And you knew that you had just stolen another piece of my heart. So much so that as soon as the song was over and your performance complete, you gave me the greatest hug! You were amazing.
I seriously soaked in every moment. I thanked Jesus for his unspeakable blessings in my life. I celebrated and prayed. Even while my eyes were locked on you both, I thanked Jesus for you two! I thanked Him for your beautiful mama who wasn’t feeling the best and trying to get a break on the couch. I mean that’s what allowed me to take 100% control of tonight’s bedtime routine. I help bedtime routine every night, but tonight…I was Super Girl Dad. There was no shame in my game because tonight I was All In celebrating being a daddy to two awesome girls. I even celebrated the fact that we were doing girl things, dancing to girl songs, having fun in who God created us to be. Two beautiful little girls who were fearfully and wonderfully made. And One daddy who didn’t care if anyone was watching.
Audrey…Amelia… You were fearfully and wonderfully made by a Creator who knew you before you were even born. He created you on purpose and for purpose! He has a plan for your life!
In todays time, it seems that so many people are living without Truth in their lives. I can’t imagine the difficulties and the pressures you two girls will face. The world is trying to camouflage sin as normal, acceptable, and even glorified. Your mom and I were just talking about a Netflix show we were watching, and liked, had lesbian scene in it. We were both like “why did they have to put that in there!?!” You are going to face so much pressure to fold to the idea that everyone has there own truth…well don’t do it. Read this letter, know how much your Daddy loves you. Remember you were created in the image of God, you’re a child of the King, remember Christ and his sufferings. Remember there is truth. Jesus says he is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Truth is Jesus loves you and just like he designed you to dance, laugh, sing and snuggle tonight with you’re daddy. You’re still designed in his image today. He created you to Abide in Him, experience joy unspeakable, peace unexplainable, to be adventurous, determined, be proud but humbled, to have FUN!! He created you to be You, a woman of Faith, who stands firm in the faith.
I’m not sure why I’m writing all this tonight, but time stood still tonight for daddy and his two beautiful daughters. As we laid in bed reading a story, you both snuggled tight, I smiled. Y’all think I’m gonna slip out when you fall asleep so you both hold on tight. Amelia, at one point you climbed on top of me. I’m loving every minute. After a few minutes of arm tickles and snuggles, I pretend that I’m asleep to see what y’all will do because I know your both awake. After a couple s’mores, Amelia you pretend to snore. I almost laughed out loud. I wasn’t in a hurry to go anywhere tonight because tonight, time stopped and I was All In with you two!
I love you both more than you’ll ever know! And as much as I think that is God loves you even infinitely more than that!